obviously i shouldn't. and i shouldn't ghost him either. but i have 0 spoons for this

i should not have gone on a date, i should not have stayed on the date as long as i have, i should not have gone back to his place, i should not have had sex with him, and i should not be ghosting him

@wolfgang it sounds like you should text back if he's being nice!! could it be that texting back and talking ultimately uses less spoons than the spoons that get used to just dwell in self-loathing???? not that it's easy or will stop the self-loathing but it could help, obviously your brain is playing tricks on you and telling lies that you shouldn't talk because that's what depressed brains do. sorry you are dealing witb depression, big hugs to you if you'd like