re: asking a weird question into the void, mh-
@SamIO honestly it feels like what i really need is adhd meds cause they're stimulants, and what i'd like to be able to do is non-exciting household chores, programming, reading, and mild exercise
and i could pretty easily get some prescribed again, but they have terrible side effects on my body while they're active, and on my mind when they're done
but idk i miss being able to do things. weed does dull the pain, and i know from past experience that i can be 100% functioning on weed; but if i START from 0 motivation to do anything, then weed doesn't give me more of it, only less