mood; moving; an actual PSA this time <3
Hey, quick note.
PLEASE don't interpret my mixed feelings about heading towards NOLA as any lack of affection for the people I have here. About 90% of that is my depression and my scars from the past year telling me nobody here actually wanted me anyhow... and if they do, I'll just fuck it up anyhow. I only believe that when I'm in the depths. I treasure the people I'm going to have to leave behind--- that's the whole PROBLEM. :)
mood; moving; an actual PSA this time <3
@zebratron2084 yah, I figured. bad brain stuff. <3
mood; moving; an actual PSA this time <3
@troodon exactly, you get it. you are still my post-Bad-Thing MVP -- i'll be grateful for your friendship for the rest of my life *verklempt, talk amongst yourselves* <3
and i intend to enjoy the fuck out of my remaining time here with my friends before declaring victory over seattle and hastily retreating to nola to recuperate ;)
mood; moving; an actual PSA this time <3
The two friendships that initially lured me here kinda exploded, messily. And I'll be honest... I needed more support and more time out than I actually got. That's probably 99.9% my own fault, and I'm owning that. I let shit get to me, and the guilt from that explosion is still haunting me daily.
THAT'S what I'm fleeing from, not you. I want to see you in my remaining months. I want to stay in touch once I'm gone.
More to come.