mood (~); mortality; mild medical TMI
On the other hand, the fear of dying on the people I love is still there in the background. It's okay, it's been there since I was 12 and lost my dad.
Sometimes I still really worry I'm gonna follow the same path. Tonight, I wondered if he went suddenly without warning, or had some inkling something was wrong.
Then I remembered he was the same stubborn dipshit who wouldn't TELL US that he was peeing blood during a vacation until we were halfway back home...
re: mood (~); mortality; mild medical TMI
So, yeah. Knowing him, he'd probably had chest pains all fucking day and was just too much of a Big Manly Paisan to tell anybody.
We also found stray french fries in his car, and a bunch of sub shop wrappers in the trunk after he died. Son of a bitch was sneaking food, blatantly against his cardio diet. :p
Love you, Dad, but I'm not half as fucking cavalier as you were. I'll probably get a warning shot from the Reaper, too-- and I'll actually listen.