Had a nice day out with @anthracite, actually. Saw Spiderverse, had cake. But I haven't been able to shake this weird depressive, nostalgic funk since we got home.

You know, I'm just going to blame bad neurochemistry. Probably did way overdo the carbohydrates today. If there's a real problem, soon I'll have two weeks in Ohio to contemplate it, I guess.

A lot of stuff just still feels super-weird to me after all this past year's losses. Phantom friendship syndrome, or something. At least it'll make it that much easier to leave, which was going to have to happen anyhow.

I'm okay. I don't trust this bad mood. Things are fine. I'm just a little heartachey and I miss a lot of people and I still worry a little bit every day that I've failed or annoyed everybody. But I'm doing better than I was.