mh (-)
Once again, I find myself fleeing towards my day job, for emotional shelter from my increasingly vestigial social/imaginative life, and am being crushed en route by nostalgia for a day when it was the other way around.
mh (-)
@zebratron2084 Well, for what its worth, losing yourself in creative work for yourself and your sigother, paying work to keep the wolf at the door, and good food, is not a bad way to make the days go by.
re: mh (-)
@Momentrabbit It's true. I just told Peg, after she fanned me the latest set of roughs, thank fucking god for Parallax.
I guess while I *miss* my creative and social lives being the same thing, this is probably the more Healthy Responsible Profitable Adult Way to use those skills? And that's not _necessarily_ a bad thing.
There are just a few vital changeling nutrients that I'm still a little deficient in here, but I know I'm preachin' to the choir. *hugs tight*
re: mh (-)
@zebratron2084
I wake up.
I try to read a little online if my emotions are stable... if not, I sketch or play a game.
I go to work.
I make parts.
I check in online, but it seems far safer to visit and not to stay.
I go home.
I try to social.
If I don't have spoons for that, then I draw or play a game.
If that isn't working, I go to bed early.
That's my daily.
It ain't much, but it's getting me through.
re: mh (-)
@zebratron2084
I have always tried to get those essential macroemotions from outside sources. Partly out of a concern, maybe, that if I decide to go insular and synthesize my own supply, I may never come back out.
Maybe its time I found out.
mh (-)
Maybe it is time to try a new hobby to meet some new people?
How about fishing? You like fish, the fishermen like fish.
mh (-)
@zebratron2084
*Hugs softly*
mh (+)
I mean, I'll tell ya what, though, it worked. I definitely am feeling the "Research: 💯" tonight. I mean, I just taught a coworker the difference between an Ortschaft and a Gemeinde without having to look it up.
Also, I mean, look at that LRB. Look at that little gatorbloom. Just look at 'em. Parallax is going great, and I have to admit my creative life is going great. It's just the connections— to you and to my inner "spiritual" life— through that creativity that I really miss. A lot. A fucking lot. 😿❤️