mood (--), 🐯, dark kinstuff
I think I picked up Peg's little bout of low-grade suicidal ideation from yesterday. Maybe I should take my own advice and go get some cookies. But I think for now, "rest of yesterday's deep dish pizza and an angry nap" will have to suffice.
Gotta stick to your strengths. Nobody does angry naps better than manticores.
Oh, in other kinstuff news, I think a peryton has joined the cast. That's... probably not a good sign but maybe a little futile homicidal ideation will be a nice break from the futile suicidal ideation.
All he wants to do is eat the Perfect Evil Heart out of some oppressive shithead's chest and then die in peace with a proper shadow. Is that really so bad? And he's all fuzzy and velvety. Fuck it, I'm inviting him in.
mood (--), 🐯, dark kinstuff
@JulieSqveakaroo @zebratron2084
I've been having gopicidal ideations lately.
mood (--), 🐯, dark kinstuff
I can relate to this...
mood (--), 🐯, dark kinstuff
@zebratron2084 Lately my semipseudomagical practice has been largely focused on redirecting destructive energy to places more deserving than myself, and fuck me running it is a lot harder than it sounds. I've made good progress – it took a hell of a spell and the kind of fortitude people use to do things like quitting smoking, but the insides of my cheeks are smooth and healed for the first time in about 20 years. Long way to go tho. Maybe I need a new headfriend too.
re: mood (--), 🐯, dark kinstuff
@Sig I'm REALLY glad to hear you're making progress on this, though. I kinda sympathize with the cheeks -- I realized recently that I haven't had a big nasty bite mark on my forearm since I moved out of That Household and started spending most of my time with Peggy...
re: mood (--), 🐯, dark kinstuff
@zebratron2084 That's great to hear. Here's to healing. <3 You got me thinking about how long it's been since I allowed myself any (non-self-)destructive fantasies. My relationship with anger in general has been pretty busted since probably high school. And my relationship with exploring that kinda stuff through headcritters has been busted since a couple bad exes ago. I feel like it's finally starting to come back. Feels exciting.
mood (--), 🐯, dark kinstuff
@zebratron2084
Homicidal ideations are better than suicidal ones... I think...