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Haven't had much to say lately. Been scared, stressed, and mourning my old social life.
Worried about the cats almost every day, even when they're apparently healthy and happy, because I can't stop anticipating what MIGHT and probably will happen to them someday.
Doing pretty much the same thing with Peg, too.
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@zebratron2084 (Nuzzling.) I'd suspected. I'm sorry. I hope you can feel some tranquility.
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@Austin_Dern *hug* Yeah, see last reply to Leucrotta -- basically, we're OK, there are just a lot of reminders of how screwed up and precarious everything is right now. I'm more concerned about them than me, present company included, but it still pings the anxiety. We're... OK. We'll be better if we get a stimulus, and better still if my boss keeps failing to notice the slow degradation of my ability to focus over the last year. n.n;;
The cats are kind of a whole different thing. Just... far more responsibility over other living beings than we ever, ever, ever set out to have. We'd even avoided having pets as an adult for that exact reason. And now... here they are, and they're sweet and beautiful and wild and I love them and they scare the shit outta me and nothing I do for them will ever be enough to buy my sense of security back.
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@zebratron2084 Understand so many of those feelings and I see that you're picking up but, mm. That anxiety when things are basically all right is another killer.