analyzing my brain divots w/morbid fascination 

Current vicious cycle: I'm not allowed to initiate contact with most of my friends because I only contact my friends when I'm upset and I'm being a colossal narcissistic drain who only uses them.

However, I was also not allowed to initiate contact with my friends during times I was happy, because if they really wanted to do something with me, they would have contacted me first.

Yeah, it's really no wonder my emotions blew out under faint pressure.

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analyzing my brain divots w/morbid fascination 

@Austin_Dern This plus some serious untrimmed neurological overgrowth is pretty much what led to my ultimate falling out with my housemates. :|

It tells you what an amazing person I am that I managed to make myself feel like an exile, while living in a household of six friendly people which is also the social nexus for the Seattle postfurry community. That takes a special kind of introversion talent. :>

analyzing my brain divots w/morbid fascination 

@Austin_Dern (Hmm. "Exile" is probably not the right term, exactly. I never really felt rejected, just... kinda... superfluous.)

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