analyzing my brain divots w/morbid fascination
Current vicious cycle: I'm not allowed to initiate contact with most of my friends because I only contact my friends when I'm upset and I'm being a colossal narcissistic drain who only uses them.
However, I was also not allowed to initiate contact with my friends during times I was happy, because if they really wanted to do something with me, they would have contacted me first.
Yeah, it's really no wonder my emotions blew out under faint pressure.
analyzing my brain divots w/morbid fascination
@Austin_Dern (Hmm. "Exile" is probably not the right term, exactly. I never really felt rejected, just... kinda... superfluous.)