mood (~)
Yeah. So, for those of you who didn't piece it together, a very long-standing and once-close set of friendships basically ended yesterday.
There's no need for details. If you know the people involved, you know. I wouldn't want anyone to treat them any differently, anyhow. This is between me and them.
I'm still hurt by the circumstances, and the sense I'd been put in a tremendous double-bind all along, but right now I'm okay and almost glad for the closure.
mood (~)
@Austin_Dern Me too, hun. Me too. I still love everybody involved and, while I know I made plenty of thoughtless mistakes -- and was pretty eager to make up for them -- I am fairly bewildered about what I actually did that was apparently *that disastrously* wrong.
mood (~)
@Austin_Dern Heh. Yeah. That's exactly how it feels. "I'm so mad at you but I could never find it in my heart to hurt you on purpose."
It's so hard to sort out how much of this was their failings, how much was mine, how much was just "these things happen," and frankly, how much was just fallout from the rest of the world going to shit and stressing us all out constantly. -__-
I forgive them but am thinking not having to deal with them anymore is actually a damn fine idea.
mood (~)
@Austin_Dern *pets coati ears* It's going along well. Like I said, it's liberating to no longer have to care about something that was mostly only hurting me anyway. None of my other friendships seem to have been affected, people seem to understand These Things Just Happen and it's tragic, and... yeah. It all dovetails nicely into some other long-term plans of mine anyhow. I'll be okay, and thank you for the support. *fuzzle* :)
