kink - weight gain, noncon, some semi-neg introspection
I really wish, sometimes, I could like being fat without needing the extra layer on it. I feel like I make life a lot harder by needing it to be forced on me. I worry I push people away with my neediness. But... a large part of it is also about healing a lot of the damage leftover from... a past filled with dismissiveness towards my needs. Brain stuff is super complicated >.<