Krissy @BigFatFae@awoo.space

Long story short, I've been adulting way too hard lately and I'm kinda done with it for a while, and just wanna be little. Cool? cool...

A lot of what draws me into wanting to be little is that I want to have more reason to give up agency to somebody else, and that's definitely heavily kink related... but there's more than that, too.

A major component to me is an affinity for the fae. Fae, in my envisioning, are... somewhat carefree. They simply ARE what they are. They have a childlike wonder for the world and people in it. And being little also reinforces that, letting myself simply... BE

(non people are included in this too, if you prefer to be a non-person)

Good morning, all you lovely people. Thank you for still being here! It's a tough world out there, but here we all are, living anyways. Keep at it! Together, we're gonna do great.

@Kyna *Hugs*

@Kyna Your writing has only gotten better over time. The writing you make tomorrow will outpace the writing of yesterday. My sympathies go out to you, of course. But remember to keep pushing forward. You haven't lost the spirit of the writing, only the form.

@Kyna >.< I'm sorry

@KrystaStarlight Don't make me call the portmanteau police. (rewoorewoorewoorewoo~)

Awoo.space Thought: Renaming Favorites to "Wuffs". "Krissy Wuffed at your status." (thanks to @KrystaStarlight )

http://generated.inspirobot.me/047/aXm1921xjU.jpg is this a damn subtoot about myself?

http://generated.inspirobot.me/050/aXm6587xjU.jpg

I guess we're getting started on the generational hate a bit early, aren't we?

And that's enough dumping thoughts out there for now. Hope some people enjoyed that stuff

My experience with noncon is entirely through roleplay, because I am... I guess 'gray asexual'. I don't think about actual physical sex, I masturbate to ideas brought up in text or voice roleplay. I have little interest in actual sex. Even the roleplay rarely brings up sex, beyond a few edge cases. (Heh)

So... Ultimately what it all comes down to is that I want someone to tell me that they want that thing that I want so bad that they won't wait for me to say yes. That they'll push past what little resistance I offer. I'm a desired object to be used as they please (the fact that how they please matches my OOC fantasies is ignored). The stronger their interest in what they're doing, the more powerful the squirms induced in me.

My denials are tepid, my resistance token. I not only give in, I grant further ideas and guidance on how further to lock in to the ideas that are making me squirm.

The entire process is an act of mental suspension of disbelief, hanging over emotional pitfalls with trust being the safety net. It allows me to explore deeper elements of my psyche, and in the moment of climax, briefly escape my ego so that I can heal some of the damage that's accrued.

I've spent a lot of time going over what makes my kinks tick, why I like the things I do. I think it's a useful thing! Finding the words to describe your feelings gives them weight and purpose. For me... Noncon play is a form of seeking validation. I am looking for someone who enjoys doing something to me that I already like. I struggle a lot with feeling valid (see other posts today) and my way around this? Have somebody else do it to me because THEY want it.

Everyone who participates in noncon play does so for very different reasons. So generalizations beyond this definition are very difficult. So from this point on, know that I'm talking about myself, specifically. Other people may share my thoughts as well, but that isn't something you can take for granted.

Noncon: Abbreviated form of Non-consentual, generally used to refer to fully consentual play that pretends to lack consent. The primary mechanism of this is creating a 'hard' no that replaces the usual words used to request that things 'stop', such as a safe word, or the parentheses in text roleplaying signifying out-of-character.