Guess this is also my personal account, so.
Both psych and endo agreed that a small dose of testosterone would be good for me in terms of focus and such, but boy is that fucking with me as a trans woman, no matter how non-binary. It feels like a little bit of failure, you know? Add in the fact that insurance flatly denied so it'll be out of pocket and...weh.
Gender/HRT griping
@Doephin yeah, I'm at 30, which isn't bad, but it's one of those low-barrier things I can try with potentially significant upsides. One of those things that I totally get on an intellectual level but am having the hardest time internalizing x.x