https://theconversation.com/tiredness-of-life-the-growing-phenomenon-in-western-society-203934

I tell you, this strikes me in bone-deep fears and anxieties.

I can handle dying. We all die. What I can't handle is a society that increasingly wants me to die. I can't handle it as a trans person and I can't handle it in terms of getting older.

There is such sheer, sneering contempt out of so many people for anyone over the age of 35 and it makes me feel isolated and alone.

Every time someone goes on about how everyone over a given age point has outlived their usefulness, I go "well, that counts me out" more and more often, year by year.

And the people they interview know it. They know that they're seen as an embarrassment and a burden. Society's told them that they have nothing left to give.

And there's only so much fuck-you I can keep in my system before I start to believe it, you know?

I tell myself that all getting older means is that I'm wiser and smarter. I tell myself it's a good thing that I'm growing as a person. But it's me versus a world that tells me otherwise, and the support network for people middle-aged and older who feel this way? Far as I can tell, it doesn't exist.