Late night feels dump, anxiety, self harm(-)
Although I sit here staring at scars of past mistakes, it's funny in a way, most of well... THOSE scars are on my right arm.
But now my left arm has some. It's been shaking a lot lately. Comes and goes. Definitely spikes when I'm feeling nervous. Tried to squeeze hard enough with my right hand to make it stop. I ddin't know nails could draw blood.
So hey, probably new future faint white scars to remind me of pain and mistakes.
Late night feels dump (~ okay done)
Alright, hand is shaking again. Going to dry some tears and try to lay down. I need sleep.
Good night fediverse. I love you.
Thank you for being strong for me when I couldn't. I only hope I can help others in the future as you've helped me in the past.
❤️ ❤️
Finally, goodnight.
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@Draekos Goodnight, friend :)
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@Draekos I'm so proud of you for being here, for existing with all your scars and letting them mark your past while not depriving you of your future. Its taken a lot of strength to get here. You're doing amazing. 💙
Late night feels dump (+, but like some death talk )
But you know what. At some level "what does not kill you makes you stronger" is true. Every one of those scars I have is a sadness I've pulled out of.
Cancer tried to kill me, It failed and I went from thinking I was a boy who just tried to exist to a girl taking hold of her life.
Depression, fuck you. You won't kill me.
The scars are battles I may have lost, but this is a war I will win.