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1: I... I guess I have to be okay with this. It's what I'm born with??????

2: I'm not okay with this, but GRS is expencive.

3: Girldick/Bussy Memes.

4: Mouthfeel™

5: *sips heavily from a wineglass* look, If I have to deal with my genitals, so do you.

🖼

Pet bird update:

I sneezed, she was in my lap.
Surprisingly, still in my lap, but giving me stink eye for sneezing on he-oh.

Nope.
Back to nap.

Sometimes I think I'm too sane for the people I do(/have) swoon(ed) over >_>

Me: well, time for bed.

Brain: FOOL! Time for a few minutes of snuggle fantasies, THEN sleep.

Good morning, Mastocutes

"I've had people make that joke about my pets and I found them funny, in the right situations."

..........................................Okay. At least he did directly apologize for it.

probably should have CW'd sorry, not sure what the CW would have been?? bleh. Going to focus on work now.

How to handle someone making a "joke" that's so deeply wounding you can't even react and they think your response is faux-frustration?

Cause like, holy shit thanks for making light of the idea of my pet dying I guess bud. Crying while I should be working and I don't even know how to approach that.

MIB: International???
We need a 4th movie?
None of the initial Cast?

Real-*sees Tessa Thompson in a suit*..............

Okay. I'm seeing this 👀 💦

"Eehhh... I'll procrastinate a bit, do a reading about tod-"

Tower.
9 of Swords.

Okay deck, okay fine. I'll go do chores.

Honestly at this point I'm losing some shine for this reading and feeling like I'm going in circles on it. So time to put the cards away and have some lunch I think.

I hope you enjoyed my novice card reading ramblings!

To take a further step in. I have 3 major arcana, 3 wands, 3 swords. And odd balancing point being the cups. Now's a good time to talk deeper meaning in my eyes.

Wands are a suit of passion and desire. and a clear link with the magician previously mentioned.

Swords, A suit of logic and ideals. Matched with the Emperor.

And the major arcana are trump cards of their calling. The one left out in this being the High Priestess. The struggle between logic and passion rests on a point of emotions (the lone cups) and the subconscious.

I'm not fully sure what to make of this right now, so let's put that aside. Physically the suits are huddled. The wands all touch eachother in a V shape, the swords are a hard line on the end of the reading. Even the major arcana and lone cup form a Y.

To me the wands speak to a fear of overburdening myself. Getting into the deep end and having no way out... if I didn't have the community with me. The energy of those around me will help me carry through the problems I did not forsee.

The Swords? They're linked to the past with the Emperor. I feel this could be taken a bit literally as something to the effect of "don't overdo it and at the end you'll make the choice of doing it again or not." but I feel it could also be a bit more subtle? I can chose to push through and risk being burnt out, or not do so and constantly have the baggage and problems of falling to my old habits of reflexively refusing things without thought. The comfort of a passively harmful past or the prospect of a challenging future.

Alright now for some deconstruction,
and keep in mind that the question was how my first convention as a dealer will be going.

The first 4 cards seem to tell a simple story to me. I've set forth on a path I'm not sure I can fully handle. I need to stress less about the structure of it all and focus on taking this by the reigns. The Magician always feels to me like a master artist in the middle of their work. A future I'd love to live.

Even the first 7 cards (stopping at the High Priestess) carry through on that. The 4 of wands may as well be literally "you've got friends at the convention, have some fun." In fact, the 4 of wands only ever has come up in readings regarding conventions for me. Go figure. the 3 and highpriestess in combination seem to me to say that I am stressed about trying to plan for unseen problems and I need to take the time to explore both the possible falseness of worries and prepare more for ones I may not yet have realised.

Then the swords show up.

The 4 still feels in line with this initial reading, "don't fucking over exert yourself at the con, you fool" But the 6 and 2 get.... weird.

Again, this is my initial read. I have some FEELINGS on this and Already have a lovely and insightful reply from @Motodrachen that sheds some light I'd not noticed.