Where the hell did I go? (social anxiety, mh-)
Once upon a time, I was a regular on several IRC channels and MUCKs. I could pop in and out anytime with zero obligations, and I was unafraid to participate.
Nowadays I'm down to small Telegram chats with folks I've known since forever, and those tend to be brief because I guess don't have what it takes to keep a conversation going anymore.
I can't seem to make myself dive into anyplace where I don't already know at least a couple folks. Even if I do know some folks I'm anxious because I feel so far out of touch and I might:
• step on toes and give myself more intrusive memories of awkward encounters;
• get overwhelmed by walls of text and then feel bad about not keeping up;
• have to deal with willfully ignorant shitheads that everyone else tolerates;
• or have to dodge popular folks that I stay away from for serious reasons.
Heck, all of this is why I don't even toot much. It feels like too much risk.
I do not know what the fuck to do.
Where the hell did I go? (social anxiety, mh-)
Trust someone who is extremely out there - you're not missing anything. 🍷 You are a quality experience, not a quantity. 💙
Where the hell did I go? (social anxiety, mh-)
@ElectricKeet Relatable; it is what it is. There's nothing wrong in only having a certain amount of conversational energy, or indeed, in having to go quiet when that runs out.