A friend mentioned that dissociation is good at masking pain, equivalent to a low dose of opioids. I'm pretty much permanently in a partially dissociated state because it's the only way I have to deal with the dysphoria, so I decided to check on how much pain I'm masking on a regular basis.
Turns out it's a lot. Anything below a 6 on my personal pain scale just does not register. And so I have no idea how long my joints have been this fucked for.
re: physical health (negative)
@Felthry Yeah. I'm trying to figure out what I'll need to say in order to be taken seriously. It's a daunting challenge.