Still stuck in between desiring change and being unsure/afraid of it. I guess I am still seeking "approval" in a way, unfortunately.

Am not sure I can make this design support spiked features like this (on the back and on both sides of the tail "mane"). I am also not sure how to tweak the striped pattern to fit better. I've even tried playing with different head feathers like a traditional raptor but it felt strange to make such a change...though I think if I was different in the past I either wouldn't have given her the "hair" or did something different than what she has atm. I am soo lost what to do.

Not sure what to really do, I sorta like the design but also feel embarrassed like she's "not cool enough" or something. Maybe that's an extension of my desire for "approval" which I know isn't good, but it affects me a lot still.