Fen @Fenreliania@awoo.space

aahh! I keep remembering my hair is a mousey blonde and not a luscious beautiful fluffy brown like I adore... I should figure out some ways to style this nicely I guess. Don't want to dye my hair yet, for several reasons.

Would be nice if I had somewhere I could just go be a girl for a bit. Like a female friend I'm comfortable with who'd take care of me and girl me out for a day or something. I dunno.

I don't though, so I just have to grow out my hair and learn how to style it.

I mean I am leaning into the femininity more than it feels like my urges call for, and while I know that's partly because I just damn well want to right now, I'm not totally sure of the whole reason.

[[GIRL INTENSIFIES]]

I was thinking to myself "maybe it was just a brief phase of being excited and I don't really want to be more girly" and then I started dancing and being cute while listening to music and was like NO DAMN YOU OF COURSE I WANNA BE CUTE DUH

Like screw dresses yeah. I don't really want to wear a dress (I like dresses on other people though) but I do wanna have the style my avatar has.

What if... I just want to wear cute clothes that look kinda girly? What if I just want to look cute in a kinda girly way? I think this might be getting closer to the mark but who knows.

Anyway, goodnight sweeties~

In the kind of mood where I want to collapse to my knees and look at you with sad watery eyes and find comfort in your kind caring embrace. I want to be a cute anime girl but I'm also worried that might not be what I really want.
Whatever, boy mode, I wanna hug so many cute girls.

I am still pretty eager to have long floofy hair and present kinda girly, I feel like this urge has been around for a while so I feel more confident about it than other things but there's still doubt y'know. I'm kinda like, worried about losing the desire to be a bit of a girl? Because right now I really like the idea of it.

*lays on you* I am so tiiiiired I did a lot of good coding today! I did a good job!! And I talked and played with friends, which was really nice. But I dunno, I had a little bit of weird feelings particularly in the last hour or so which have kinda soured the experience BUT

alway rember happy day

Going out do do shopping and eat foooood because I am so HUNGRY

💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

that is all, goodnight!

I like being a girl but I don't know if that means anything because apparently emotions are more complicated than they ought to be!!

Anyway kiss me on the head and call me a cute girl~

I am not helping to dispel the notion that I am in fact comfortable as a boy but trust me!! Underneath this cute veneer is a cutie at the helm of a complex vehicle, wondering what model it is and what the levers do like nyoron~

Anyway hug me and call me a girl I like it <3

Not sure quite how to describe this but like... I don't want to have her style but like, she's got the purple fluffy hair, striped thigh-highs, comfy jumper, and she's a cute girl. And I mean I love her, of course.
Though I think I want something different for me?