re: Kiwifarms musings, recovering from hate
One of the saddest cases, though, is Cuddly Zebesian formerly known as Cinox Fellpyre. I remembered when he was a part of another furry imageboard, and was picked on for being sensitive, and for having neglectful parents, which was often a source of his distress.
He later spoke, as a member of Kiwifarms, about how he "got better" by putting a wall around himself made out of thorny briars, so that he would never be made to feel vulnerable ever again.
The problem with this should be obvious. It didn't make him stronger, it made him weaker. In hiding his vulnerabilities and putting a prickly, thorny, and abusive mask, he ended up poisoning his own soul and letting it rot to the point where I don't know if he's capable of love or compassion anymore.
I would have loved to reconnect with him, but not as he is right now, but as he used to be years ago, when he was awkward, but also sweet and friendly.
re: Kiwifarms musings, recovering from hate
Two main patterns I noticed from the folks there are:
a) A resentment towards people who are brave enough to live our authentic selves without compromise, likely because they themselves are stuck in closets of their own.
b) Anti-intellectuals who carry their dialectic with the mentality of "If I can't understand it, it is not real/valid, and I will pretend to understand it."
re: Kiwifarms musings, recovering from hate
I also have similar feelings towards Meowthkip aka Catbountry. It's really sad to see that she's fallen into the mindset that if she isn't tearing down other people, she's going to be on the chopping block herself. This all, thanks to her pathological need to prove, to her KiwiFarms peers, that she is better than the subjects covered.
She used to be such a darling too, and I can't help but feel like she ell into the same trap and pipeline that I did years ago. Only, while I managed to get out of it, she stayed in and festered in the hate.