Past relationship ~ 1/2
Gosh, that was like 12 years ago, and the relationship lasted for 3 years. Looking back, I think I remembered the one thing that doomed it. I entered it primarily because she was a friend that showed affection, and I didn't want to disappoint her. She needed someone to be there for her at the time too.
Once she got into the kigurimi and zentai community, we started drifting apart.
I've always struggled to say no to people, and I've only recently learned to turn down-
Past relationship ~ 2/2
-propositions from friends attracted to us, and for whom we have feelings for. And it's always a shitty feeling.
It's hard because I am poly as fuck and develop wild crushes everywhere, but I am very aware of my limits, and so keep my polycule to the small size it is right now.
It's for the best. I would never forgive myself if I took a friend we're catching deep feelings for into my 'cule, only for it to not work out, hurting them in the process.
