Okay, but what if I went more openly femby, I ask to no one in particular, in between bouts of sleep.

I never remembered to say more on this, but

I have a complicated relationship with femininity that's hard to articulate. I could never consider myself binary anything, just because I was never terribly comfortable with the idea of being identified either direction, for various reasons, including sexualization. But it was always... A certain amount of "not male" and "not female" energy, that was always way more "not male" energy.

So I've always been drifting in androgyny, but somewhere in a vaguely more feminine space. I still don't want to be female, but I've always had more attachment to feminine qualities than masculine ones, and my more masculine behaviors were always more unintentional, and cause for shame.

So I guess just. "Femby" really is the best word for it. I'm not a girl, I'm non-binary. But I'm decidedly more feminine than masculine.

I've almost always, if not always, chosen female for character creation in games with the option, excepting silly gimmicks and rare cases of non-binary options, or times when I'm quite attached to a character type that's gender locked. At least, ever since I started thinking about my gender identity. And it's become enough of a recurring identity that it may well be an emergent plural aspect of me. But it's still its own identity, not "me," not Facet. She's Sigrid.