agender, introspective, longish
I guess that also leads people to fill in the gaps for this behavior. Common things I hear, in paraphrase:
* “Oh, them, they never respond, they’re probably an asshole.”
* “They’re really quiet except for specific subjects. Then they give way too much information.”
* “I think they’re plotting something.”
And I guess I understand the impulse to think that, but usually it’s because I’m paralyzed not knowing what my identity even is.
agender, introspective, longish
I think this is part of why I have so much trouble relating to people or figuring out how relationships — even casual friendships — are supposed to work. All of the hardware is there, all of the software is installed correctly, except I didn’t come with any configuration files whatsoever.
Which I guess I recognize as not broken, nor exactly. But it leaves people uncomfortable that I’m faking it. Which I guess I am.
agender, introspective, longish
A common thing, especially among trans friends, is that allowing oneself to express and be their gender is extremely powerful. But how does that work when you explore there and find absolutely nothing? Not a default configuration, not NB, not a suppressed narrative, but nothing — a tabula rasa in which impostor syndrome turned out to be correct?
I’ve been struggling with that for awhile, and I decided I’d build my own. I’m not good at this yet, but I’m trying.
infosec things, belated birthday
I’m a remote employee, and my hatchday was yesterday. My manager remembered and tried to send a surprise order my way.
This resulted in my receiving a mystery call from Uber Eats from my manager’s first name, which I denied.
We had a laugh that this was exactly the right way that security puzzle should have been handled.
I recreated my favorite shot from "Spirited Away" in No Man's Sky. Took quite a while to find an oceanic planet with decent weather, but the search was part of the fun. Updated my base catalog page with this base + portal glyphs to visit it. http://vectorpoem.com/nms
Nintendo Direct
An oddly specific thing about Tetris 99: the format and presentation look exactly like how Puzzle Pirates did its naval battles (except using Tetris instead of clones of Puzzle Bobble and Super Puzzle Fighter).
I know of a few people that this appeals to specifically, and I kind of wonder if Nintendo hired them or any former Three Rings employees.
Nintendo Direct
Nintendo: Here are games where you can be a Yoshi. Here is a game where you can give gifts and belly rubs to your friendly neighborhood dragon. Here is a glorious remaster of your favorite childhood game. Fire Emblem now has deep character customization. Oh, and Tetris now has 99 players, because why not.
I... huh.
A possibly related phenomenon is called crown shyness – certain species of trees will very politely avoid overshadowing each other in a forest canopy, leaving gaps between each others' branches.
Mostly trees of the same species will do this, but different species of tree have been observed doing this too.
Again, no one's entirely sure how the trees do this, and some botanists are probably arguing about it somewhere right now.
more on Warframe Fortuna, mild spoilers
In a game that is 95% about things being loud and shooty, someone decided “what if we made this into a nature documentary that you can play”, and I think that is wonderful.
Dragon. Agender, otherkin, occasional artist and writer, infosec engineer, in about that order. Avatar by Xeirla. Singular they/them preferred.
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