Thank fuck work is letting me take a couple days off immediately following Thanksgiving. I desperately need the break from the constant 12 hour shifts, and a 6 day weekend will be a very welcome break. Now if I can just arrange to spend some of that at a hotel with a big soaking tub! Good luck on that though
Nudity mention
I need a naked spa day. Like real bad. Just a day I can spend the whole day naked with access to a hot tub to soak in multiple times. Better if it's a big hot tub that can fit a bunch of friends too! ... though that part would have to wait until next year at the earliest :C Still need naked hot tub time though. I miss being nude, and I desperately need a day of rest, relaxation, and soaking my cares away.
2018 - "That's Firelizard Logic!" reusable commission for @Kilroy
I still think about the sandwich alignment chart sometimes. Personally, I'm a Structural Purist, Ingredient Rebel.
Mh (-)
Fun is getting spiked anxiety because your brain decides it wants to feed you personally upsetting imagery for no fucking reason. What the fuck.
Worst part is having it happen during a time when you really CAN'T deal with an anxiety spike so you do whatever you can to drown it out while carrying about your day.
Doing better now thankfully, but fucking hell that was not a fun half hour
uspol, anhedonia regarding the results
I’m seeing a lot of people saying they feel weird for not wanting to go out into the streets and whoop and holler over all the news sources calling the election for Biden despite that being their desired result.
And I just wanna say that hey, y’all aren’t alone. The results have looked increasingly obvious to anyone watching the count since like Wednesday or Friday. And hooray, we elected another neoliberal! He’s gonna try to reach across the aisle despite it being made obvious that this is the losing strategy when your opponent is the GOP for half my life! He’s old enough to have a decent chance of dying from natural causes in an office that visibly ages you at least twice as fast as a normal person!
It came down to “a bit left of Reagan” vs “fucking Mussolini” and, yeah, I’m glad we didn’t re-elect the wanna-be dictator, you probably are too, but it’s just not exciting.
Plus we have all been super fucking stressed for the entire term, especially during a year with a pandemic. We are all still twitchy, waiting for Trump to find one last horrible thing to do - my bet is on another Supreme Court justice dying, and McConnell ramming his lame duck nomination through even as the last Senate runoffs turn him into a lame duck Senate leader, but there’s surely all kinds of other trash Trump’s pondering - and it’s hard to really celebrate.
Maybe I’ll be ready to whoop and holler when Biden takes his oath and Trump is dragged out of the White House by the Secret Service. Maybe not. It’s been a long goddamn year.
Anyway. It is okay for you to be kinda dead and empty regarding celebrations.
USPOL
Pennsylvania was called in Biden's favor (as was Nevada as of now,) so that means Biden has been projected to be the 46th President :D Even if we lose Georgia at this point, so long as the electoral college doesn't have any faithless electors we should be on our way to a slow but hopefully steady recovery! Hopefully we'll get at least a tie in the Senate, and keep the House. Then we can relax a little. But only a little! We've still got WAY too many people in the Senate and House that need to lose their seats in upcoming elections. And we NEED to get a President that's willing to do far more than what Biden claims he'll do to help ALL people living here.
Very happy that my injury is healing as nicely as it is. No longer need a bandage for it (though I do need to wipe it down, especially after work due to the incredible amount of warehouse dust that can coat my forehead in just a couple hours. I really should consider wearing a dust mask because of this. Who knows how much of that crap has made it into my lungs.
Injury, photo of injury, minor bleeding, kind of EC?
8 days later and it looks immensely better! I still need to cover it and now put neosporin on it, but so far the recovery is going well!
USPOL
Reminder that today's results are likely going to be incomplete; there is going to be a LOT of mail-in ballots that need to be counted (that for a variety of bullshit reasons enforced by the RNC could not be able to be counted until today, some AFTER the polls closed, at the absolute earliest.) We'll see the full results in a few days or so, especially if we can get those absentee ballots stuck in mail centers moved.
re: USPOL
Most importantly, take care of yourself. Tomorrow is going to be one hell of a stressful anxiety-ridden day for SO many of us as we wait to see what the fate of the country is. Do what you have to to take care of yourself. Stay hydrated, disconnect from social media if you have to for the day. I certainly wouldn't fault anyone for going quiet for most/all of tomorrow.
USPOL
Don't forget to vote, if you can and haven't yet! It's probably too late to drop off an absentee ballot (as most places seem to stop accepting at close of business day before election) and it's likely WAY too late to risk mailing it in (considering potentially deliberate postal slowdowns of election mail), so if you can safely vote at the polls tomorrow, make sure you do so! The fate of the country absolutely depends on making sure every vote is heard! (Or at least as many votes as possible)
Relationships, Aromantic talk, sex mention, pandemic mention, kinda long
Sometimes I wonder if the reason I sought relationships before I realized I was aromantic was because it felt like I was supposed to. Like I wasn't supposed to be happy (as in, it was supposed to be unnatural to be happy) unless I had a romantic relationship. Thinking back, that's what it seems like most of my past relationships were about. Doing what I was supposed to do to find happiness. Even though I had no idea how the hell romance was even supposed to work. Half the time I wondered if I was doing something wrong, because ALL of the things people talk about feeling I never experienced.
It wasn't until I realized that no, I don't need to do what society expects of me to be happy. I'm perfectly happy being in platonic relationships. Even in regards to sexual relationships, I don't need a romantic relationship to enjoy myself or help others enjoy themselves. Sex can be platonic, and it sucks that society has been built up to believe otherwise.
Biggest thing I have to remember is to be upfront about this sort of thing. If I'm getting intimate with someone or sense that things might be nudging towards a more romantic angle, just be up front that I'm not interested in a romantic relationship. ...not that I need to worry too much about that right now; work has me too busy to hang with friends or hook up with folks, and the pandemic sure as hell isn't helping
Snouts
Today marks the day that snouts.online starts its shutdown. I guess it'll still be up a bit longer for people to archive their stuff, but no new activity will be seen after today.
RIP snouts.online, it was a lot of fun while it lasted. Hopefully everyone was able to find a new place to call their home instance.
A sushi loving, sometimes screamy firelizard!
Honorary pupy, born in the era of the Famicom/NES
https://firelizard.carrd.co/ (Where I can be found)