mh, relationships, -
I am not a good relationship partner. I kind of look like I am because I am desperately co-dependent, but it turns out that “co-dependent control freak terrified that other people might experience unpleasant emotions” is not, in fact, anywhere near as good a relationship experience as it might look at first.
I am learning better patterns and working through this and it is a grinding uphill climb that has lasted years and will require decades more.