@Jacel I know. I don’t expect you to “just be okay”. It’s not your job to just “fake it” for me and I don’t want you to. I’m just... not dealing with it well myself, and I know that’s not productive. I’m looking for approaches I can take that might do some actual good.
I know there are real problems here and they are sincerely hard. It scares me and I’m not handling that very well. I promise I’m still trying and I will keep trying.