Ko Bunny 🐰🌺 @KoBunny@awoo.space
Plant bunny. Formerly a lion. Prone to pondering about gender, sex, and life in general. May be NSFW at times. Pronouns: He/Him or They/Them (either works)
Joined Apr 2017
Real World Stuff
I'm gonna do what I can, and help where and when I can. I don't have much means right now, and I'm forcing myself to carve out a little bit of my income for me-related things (and further forcing myself not to apologize for those me-related things. Self care is necessary and should be a part of your budgets.).
Real World Stuff
Today I find myself in a bit of a floaty good-ish mood. I've had a solid day of rest, and @literorrery was wonderful enough to have me over post FCBD for some petting and downtime. I'm still not at 100% by any means, but I'm a sharp bit better than I have been.
There's still a lot coming up soon, and some rough stuff to weather still. And I really wish all of my friends were in better shape. Seems like this year's a big ole storm hitting everyone I know at once.
Re: All those Late Night Ponderings / Worries from Yesterday
A big thanks to everyone who listened and responded to my musings last night (both here and not). It has me feeling loved and supported today, and generally is helping with a lot of my anxiety. <3
late night ponderings; worries
Something @literorrery said in an earlier post here triggered...something in me. She was describing one of her children, and the clothing description she used...synced with a mental image I've been trying to hold in my head without success until now. Could I also be nonbinary? I'm not sure anymore. It feels difficult to talk about this out loud. So many friends have struggled with this and I am worried this is just some internal desire to keep some link with them.
late night ponderings; worries
BLFC is on the horizon and I don't feel a particular yin to go or not. I know I need time away. I know it will help. I'm fighting against my instinct to save money. I'd rather go and do something quieter. Go camping. Spend time with those I care about. Explore deeper mysteries. Wear skirts, bras, and pretty things and not care who sees. Submit my mind and body to others for their use. These are the things that I really ache to do right now.
late night ponderings; worries
I'm currently in a position where I have financial surplus from family, but don't know that my job can sustain my paycheck at its current level. It's left me reticent to do things for myself. I just today went and got my hair dyed, and even that felt like and overreach. I reached out to an artist to do a character reference sheet too, and she's responded. That's the first two times I've spent money on things for me in the past....4 months I think?
late night ponderings; worries
Today has been a helluva day. I am attempting to parse it all, but there is a lot there. Today's my store's 4th year anniversary, and this one's a little bittersweet. I always wanted to make it a thing the community could get behind and enjoy, but lately I just haven't seen that. Maybe it was the fractures. Maybe it was just that in attempting to appeal to the wider audience and sustain the business I pushed people away. I'm not sure.
Today was one helluva long day. Moving in the morning on the heels of an 9 AM - 8 PM day at work yesterday. Finished with a blog post about Free Comic Book Day this coming weekend. Tomorrow I work open to close to give an employee time off so that they can help with that. I'm in a state of exhausted somewhere between happy and anxious.
To those who've been helping and supporting me, thank you. Your help makes all the difference to me. <3
So I don't know what content I plan on putting here. I know that I'd like to use this space for more creative and interesting things. Right now isn't the best time for me to be starting on this...but what can ya do right?
Plant bunny. Formerly a lion. Prone to pondering about gender, sex, and life in general. May be NSFW at times. Pronouns: He/Him or They/Them (either works)
Joined Apr 2017
