Ko Bunny 🐰🌺 @KoBunny@awoo.space
Plant bunny. Formerly a lion. Prone to pondering about gender, sex, and life in general. May be NSFW at times. Pronouns: He/Him or They/Them (either works)
Joined Apr 2017
Mental State Musings
Head's a little on wrong right now. Maybe that was because I had a really nice Thursday with my chosen family. Dinner with roommates, picked up Mistress at the airport, and generally a sense of accomplishment at home.
Come into work today and get treated to...a very hard-to-recognize emotional state from my new-yorker employee and know that I'm immediately behind in things. Gonna take a breath, make a list of things I need to do and start in on them...
Ko Bunny 🐰🌺
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@Momentrabbit Let's be robots together. Help me install these movable-type guides? And I'll need a paper tray.....
Silly kinda mushy thing
I really enjoy putting my fellow pet to bed. It kinda really gives me solid warm fuzzies inside. <3
Here, have some porn. (NSFW obviously)
It's one of those nights where I kinda need lusty/lewd thoughts to redirect my attention away from the shitty day. Hence rubber bunny vac beds.
emotional state update
I don't feel particularly great today. I know it will pass, and I'm trying hard not to give voice to some of the less charitable thoughts going through my head. But these goddamn telemarketing and sales people calls are making it really hard to keep myself emotionally centered.
Whoops! My roommate and I forgot to coordinate and are wearing the same skirt today. At least until I have to change out of it for work. =n.n=
Anxiety Stuff
I tried my darnedest to stick it out, but I just took an anti-anxiety pill. The anxiety is clearly on the downhill, but I'm really exhausted and that's not helping tonight.
There's still an urge to keep doing things and pushing myself and I know I should stop but I also know there's a cost to not stopping the cleaning.
In brighter news - once I get out of work today I can totally break out the skirt! Yay doing cleaning round the house in a skirt! <3
work stuff
My closer tonight called out sick. I was supposed to spend this afternoon cleaning the old apartment. Instead it feels like I won't be able to do more than a token attempt at it before I have to go take over that shift.
I don't really know how if I can't help today or tomorrow that the apartment will be empty by the time we have to vacate it. :/
Moving Today
I'm currently sitting in a taqueria eating breakfast and being eternally grateful to my husband for being the point person for the movers today. This has been a really tough move, for many reasons, and I'm glad the biggest hurdle is behind us after today.
What comes next is rebuilding our space together with new roommates and I am so much more behind that. It feels a bit like another fresh start.
RL Progress
With any luck I just sent one of the last emails out to the auditor doing my shop's excise tax audit. Also got contacted by the insurance agent dealing with the store's claim and was told that we'd be getting a little over half of the damages/lost merchandise from the break in, so that's good. And I managed a run of stuff from the old place to the new place!
I had a Plan Today
It was:
-Get Up, shower, eat
-Pack car w/stuff I don't want movers to move
-go therapy
-unpack car at new place, organize there
Now due to a coworker's poor decision the following got added:
-30 minute phone call with partners about the liability concerns of having a baseball bat on site
-Phone call to alarm company about a panic button
-Phone call/in person conversation with said Employee about the wisdom of being in a baseball bat and NOT TELLING ME HE HAD DONE SO.
gender related shenanigans
Turns out this orange shirt I'm wearing doesn't quiiiiiite hide the bra I'm also wearing. Result: Kinda need to keep the jacket on while out on sales floor
"Postfurry Healing"
So what this magic player proposed was just..to go rent a communal cabin in the woods for a weekend. Go there, relax, play games and go on hikes. Embrace the wild around us, make good food, enjoy each other's company. Remind ourselves of the good inherent in everyone around us. Feel like a community again.
There's a lot of reasons why this would be a bit of an undertaking...but really does feel like a worthwhile one.
"Postfurry Healing"
I've been stuck pondering something one of the magic players at the shop once suggested to me, which struck a similar chord to something I felt when out with family - the idea that we should come together and 'heal' out somewhere in the wilderness. I know that sounds really goofy and weird, but hear me out. Since January lots of us have felt distant. Cracks we'd hidden or failed to acknowledged were suddenly pushed on harder than any of us would have liked.
So yeah, I kinda think I figured what I'll be doing here - this space feels removed enough to me from the scaryness that is twitter that I don't feel a strong need to separate regular life musings from the more "after dark" musings. So you're getting thoughts from this bunny on a range of topics. I'll do my best to hide the NSFW and angsty stuff behind filters, but yeah...that feels _right_.
Musings on Needs and Wants
It's really objectively amusing (which is probably the wrong word tbh, but that's how it feels to me) to me how when I put off dealing with my own needs and wants, they intermingle and become something way different.
Like right now I am looking at the first weekend in June and going "gosh I want to just wear a skirt and be a pet and have my head scrambled and also get high as fuck and....." Obviously all of these things are not necessarily possible at the same time.
Real Life Stuff
I hate how easy it is for me to get overwhelmed these days. Landlord discussions / emails feel like there's too much information even when it's clearly just a statement to us about what they're doing. I feel like I used to be able to deal with this stuff way better....but then I have been burning the candle at both ends and in the middle lately so it doesn't surprise me that I'm this worn out.
Gender Thoughts From Last Night
Male doesn't feel like a good descriptor. Skirts are nice and I _really_ miss wearing them (haven't in...2-3 weeks?). Bras are good too even if I don't necessarily want developed breasts. He/him pronouns still feel okay. Don't know what any of this means, but saying it "out loud" feels helpful.
Plant bunny. Formerly a lion. Prone to pondering about gender, sex, and life in general. May be NSFW at times. Pronouns: He/Him or They/Them (either works)
Joined Apr 2017
