art validity
Is what I do valid and good? A bad intersection of;
* genuine desire to improve (rationally, shouldn't I start selling myself anyway, since my dissatisfaction's unlikely to go away?)
* childhood-programmed fears that no matter what I do, it won't be good enough (esp since drawings are better but I haven't been painting)
* the question "am I good enough for people to pay me, if so can I get enough, can I deal with the resulting stress?" brought on by facing another week of Day Job.
art validity
the whole thing is complicated by how online you're never far from a mixed reception to a wide range of other peoples' technical skills and imagination.
It is terribly easy here to imagine other people as valued and confident, which is of course what I want for myself (and which isn't actually about skill or imagination. Like saying "I'd like pie!" without noticing that when I want apple pie, it's not pecan pie).