@kobold if by "fighting" you mean "attempt to pursue interests, personal growth and connection instead of being completely anxious depressed wrecks 24/7"

Part of me really does want that to count.

@Leucrotta it does. survival can be a fight against everything external and internalized trying to keep you down. keep fighting 💪

@kobold in the past I've said stuff like;

"I draw because it's the closest thing I have to going down swinging" or

"I feel martial arts are important for self defense at an existential level, because you're unlikely to wind up fighting muggers, but you face a system which wants you to be a passive consumer every day"

And I still believe that, but it's hard not to think that I'm basically not doing enough while I wait to die, sometimes.

@Leucrotta you are surviving. you are doing enough to be fighting.

I hope you get to a point where survival itself isn't a fight for you, so you can change the context of your fight 💗

@Leucrotta @kobold
I see you, hon-- and I see your struggle, and I'm proud of you every day for pushing forward against a hostile, callous and uncaring world.

@mawr *offers hugs to both*

@kobold @Leucrotta *hugs you both* ♥️