mh ~, general
Something I run into is that progress is SLOW. One example of several things I work on; it takes me a lot of looking at art, intentionally analyzing art, and making art to figure out art stuff.
Rationally I'm getting there and enjoying process, but that's a collision course with some of my issues, especially the "foreshortened future" feelings. Amazing progress feels like nothing when I think of it as a possible way to gain safety before something big comes along and wipes me out.