Mh/journaling
Something I’ve realized about myself is if something sets off the irritability, not only do I feel unlikable, but I’m low on emotional resources to step back from self hate AND there are associations of being told I’m complete shit for it. And this is cumulative so whether I can pull up out of it or not it’s easier for stuff to hit sore nerves and it’s increasingly difficult to be NOT irritable/hypervigilant. Which is how I get things like spending most of high school dissociated.