So I was think about how some of today’s bad feelings are basically con drop. I WAS special, valuable and worthwhile to someone, work, parents and apartment makes me feel not special, valuable or worthwhile. Maybe the issue is in part I never learned how to carry feeling special/valuable/worthwhile into dismissive spaces because my childhood was going from one dismissive “space” to another.
Maybe I can hack feeling this bad by remembering it’s an artifact of not being granted freedom as a kid.