mh -
ooorgh
I am a bundle of anxieties, mostly related to money (I paid car insurance, and it was a hefty chunk after I dropped a chunk this month getting a tooth pulled *after insurance*), with a little bit of; I will never get to relax about politics, I will never get to relax about covid, and doing a batch of things I'd like seems impossible. Etc.
I know that my emotional state is being hammered by a batch of stuff with little recovery time, and that's part of why the despair; I know this is how I got to the worldview I had stumbling out of high school (and out of undergraduate, etc - college is stressy). Beyond that not entirely sure how to de-fuse all of the despair plus anxiety.