Gender/HRT griping
Guess this is also my personal account, so.
Both psych and endo agreed that a small dose of testosterone would be good for me in terms of focus and such, but boy is that fucking with me as a trans woman, no matter how non-binary. It feels like a little bit of failure, you know? Add in the fact that insurance flatly denied so it'll be out of pocket and...weh.
Gender/HRT griping and, tangentially, sex/ace stuff
I had a thought prior to surgery that, even if it wasn't the REASON I was getting surgery, maybe it'd fix me being more on the ace side of the spectrum. It didn't, and that's whatever, but the same thing is cropping up again. What if I really am just broken and a weird core part of my identity is just a hormone imbalance?
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Gender/HRT griping and, tangentially, sex/ace stuff
That I'm saying 'fix' and 'broken' is pretty telling about my inner turmoil, yes? :P I feel like I'm appropriating aceness, just like I feel like me going on low-dose T is proof I was just faking the trans thing.
Gender/HRT griping and, tangentially, sex/ace stuff
@makyo this. My gut feeling is this is some sort of old training that’s gonna beat you up about asexuality or gender or find something; a talk out with therapist/meditate on acid thing rather than anything GRS or meds can resolve by themselves.
