Today's sudden wave of depression after finally getting back, kinda silly given that there's an actual con next weekend, followed up with feeling a lot better as soon as I ate, really drove home the physicality of con drop;

Any convention's going to be a lot of emotional and probably physical intensity, so I'm by definition going to be vulnerable to anything (for instance, getting to be alone/suddenly being isolated is emotionally wobbly for me as introvert - it's vitally needed *and* upsetting.) I guess today was a lot of being conscious of my brain swinging back to equilibrium (and corollary, the longer or more emotionally caught up I am in a party or convention, the longer it's going to take me to regain equilibrium after the con).

It's an inevitability, but a logical and not a terrible one. I'd just been missing it consistently thanks to how I'd been parsing my "everyday" experience (which in some cases really *was* that negative).