@sebkha@meow.social I think it’s an all the above tbh; the likelihood of everything being destroyed got rolled into my overall hopelessness/anger about betrayal. Knowing I’ll suffer and die thanks to powerful adults being unaccountable egomaniacs, hits me differently a middle aged Queer who tried to do all the right things™️ than as a dissociative kid. The last 7 years has been very Reagan era, and between more knowledge of events and the immediacy of climate change it’s been more in my face.