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@Kyresti bad overlap of public school (the GOOD people get to be safe/I’m worthless), my Dad (I’m incredibly stupid and every thing I touch turns to shit/costs money), and all sorts of social baggage about suicide.
This used to be a lot worse; right now I feel stressed and want to chill out instead, rather than being caught in looping self hate and ideation.
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@Leucrotta @Kyresti If you measure by capitalism we're all failures unless we're billionaires.
Assuming you have a safe place to sleep and food then I like to think being a benefit to humanity and making the world a better place counts for more than any number in a bank.