good morning!

🦨🦔: I have one meeting in about 30 minutes and then I'm going to try to do this thing I meant to do Friday for work, then I'm going to take a nice shower, and finally I'm going to try to buy new tires

🐀: does that count as a manic monday

🦨🦔: I mean, I do wish it was Sunday

i forgot to plug in my headphones for about two minutes but at least the meeting hasnt really started yet

ok meeting done

time for some food first

i think today is a day for _two_ bowls of oatmeal

🦨🦔: oh, these are the last two packets of oatmeal in the box

gonna have to get a new box

ok im going to try to get this work done so i can take a shower without it bouncing in my head

🦨🦔: ok tire place closes at 6, I'll have to keep that in mind

🦨🦔: it's kind of bizarre how much the fact that this weekend is THE HOLIDAYS just doesn't feel like a salient thing to me

🦨🦔: like I did get my tree up and have been drinking eggnog for months, but since my plans are basically "IDK maybe my friends will do something, but whatever" and I'm _fine_ with that, I guess

I don't know, I'm beginning to feel like I've gotten too good at suppressing myself and my opinions

🦨🦔: and like as much as I do like a lot of the pomp and circumstance of Christmas, I do really like when it gets back to "normal" too

normal is when things happen and are regular and that feels good

🦨🦔: ok let's do work I guess

🦨🦔: ok no I'm about to conk out

🦨🦔: see y'all in exactly an hour for some odd reason

🦨🦔: ok that was longer than an hour but my head hurts less and I'm less angry about existing so that helps

a little hungry though

🦨🦔: ok got some pizza

🦨🦔: I think I'm going to push off getting to the tire place because I've done zero work

probably going to order some food in for dinner

just low energy today

🦨🦔: I do feel a lot better because my little break was lying on my back and trying to clear my sinuses that were getting painful

I think they block my third eye

🦨🦔: ok how have I gone this far without using a character who canonically has heart problems as test data?

I am of course talking about one Harrier DuBois

🦨🦔: doing more testing for work and its going ok, I just wish my brain had been working earlier in the day

🦨🦔: that's not true; I wish I could just live on my own schedule

🦨🦔: I feel like garbage and part of the reason why is that I need a shower so I think I'm going to deal with that

🦨🦔: better but still bleh

🦨🦔: hard to judge 28 days ago because I was coming off the high of the cabin trip

I'm having a hard time motivating myself to comb my hair but I just shampooed and it's been tied back for days

🦨🦔: ok that took way less time than I expected

the benefits of keeping it combed every few days and tied up I guess

🦔: I been meditating and detangling my hair with my fingers and it got so impressively poofy that I had to take a landscape photo to capture it all

nah y'all don't get to see, I'm mean

🦔: you gotta look these spirits in the eye; don't let em make you look up or down

🦨🦔: I feel like I gotta make a video essay about how Poker Face writes murderers

gotta finish the season but it's really interesting

🐆: ya girl is sitting in the dark staring at a two wicked candle and realizes she is staring into her own reflection

🐀: the sensations of the sight of the third eye fire, but there are no pixels lit up on the mind's screen

🦨🦔: but perhaps with practice, all things will come in time