good morning

we're back above freezing at least until the sun sets

and I do get today off, so maybe I'll actually give in to my desire back from Saturday to rest

I think I need to admit that the ergonomics of my desk are pretty bad even with the vertical mouse and until I can really fix them, take constant breaks

it might just be more that I can be more relaxed with my muscles there but I've learned bad ways of sitting

I also think typing on the phone doesn't help either

challenge: someone on cohost talked about writing and I now want to work even though I'm not doing writing

I think I'm going to not do that and instead play more mice tea since I also feel like I'm not refilling my own fiction-whimsy

ok yeah I didn't get much further in the game but as soon as I hit a mental block I gave myself time to relax around it and let my body rest more

I feel like above all else, the big thing to avoid is sitting, and lying on my back feels the most open to me relaxing the various muscles

I think they are tight because I'm forcing them to be so, to suppress inconvenient thoughts so I can do my duties and prove my worth

The right side of my body is so very tight and hard to control because my right hand does everything and it makes it really hard because it ends up being the conduit through which I often speak and yet the situation has gotten to where I can't move it enough easily without pain to think or speak thoughts that I am giving or having sorry I'm a weird state.

The real issue is that I'm using speech to text and that just has a tendency of how I speak into it and what has to be said cuz that is also an area where the tripping up happens

but using speech to text allows me to rest my right and arm. well it would let me do that if it better understood me and didn't need to have so many corrections woo

ok I think relaxing is going well

I'm also getting up now and then and taking some hits

like imagining aside, I'm anthropomorphic and it's hard to stand on one plantigrade leg and one digitigrade leg

but that disconnect can only work out standing

I want to tend to my Zen garden of Quoll but there's too much restlessness in that desire so more resting

I am trying my best to relax a lot of the pain but it really is a lot there most of it is so small that I can understand why I ignored it but a lot of it concerns how well I can breathe and perhaps one of the things about that is if you misunderstand why people try to try to cam you down when you have an asthma attack you could think that the whole point is to ignore and repress the attack

but I suppose a better way is to take concern for your breathing and try to clear those clogged airways the best you can

I think it might be time for some more filling food

unsurprisingly, perhaps, I've had a handful of Quoll related plot relevations

see, I kind of wrote the end of a story as a beginning of this story but I didn't get too deep into the previous story because the whole point is that it'll be revealed as you follow this story

but this means that I do need to think about what that previous story is, and I'd been trying to work forward from where I intend to start, but it didn't really get traction

but I just got an idea for what happened just before the end of the previous story

anyway food time

food good

a few more nodes of Mice Tea, another blast of relaxation as the next hit of weed kicked in

I have to keep reminding myself that relaxation is actually an action and a thing I'm meaning to do and not "nothing" and a sign I should go do something

another ride on the merry go round until it breaks down and I get to smooch a cutie

@chimerror https://youtu.be/XwiQVKOrejo?si=m_9gl2i7PY-UEYwo