hypervigilence/cptsd/religion
so I wind up feeling okay about the evening, and going to sleep and soon I'm off dreaming about closing venetian blinds in a room not my own when suddenly the upstairs neighbor kid is having some sort of crying screaming meltdown, and THEN suddenly there are adults stomping around yelling and my other upstairs neighbor stomping around. A little into taking melatonin I realize I'm actively triggered and hypervigilent and yeah, no, it's not happening. One half edible later, and there's still occasional stomping.
gyatei gyatei haragyatei harasogyatei boji sowaka hannya shingyo