re: mh related
@Chip_Unicorn right now, there's a batch of different stuff which is very much like childhood in implying I'm a bad person, or that if I were "good" I'd be safe and more comfortable. But the genie's out of the bottle; even when I think that I'm this completely horrible thing, that isn't something I can coast on for months on end. At some point I wind up having to face stuff that implies all of these terrible things.