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A big thing to come out of my childhood was "I am not safe or comfortable" closely intertwined with "I am bad and inferior." The reality is I'm in some ways amazing and others broken and failed, and no more or less worthy than anyone else, since we're *all similar*, and the discomfort and threat of this world is pretty random. But my buttons get pressed, at some times a lot harder than others, and there's still a not small chance this will take me out.