I thought after I accepted that it wasn’t my many personal failings which deserved everything from childhood I’d be okay. But now I keep hitting self esteem stuff about how I’ve failed, how I’ll never get some things I really want while the “good people” get to have those, and I feel unwanted and worthless, like I’ve never done therapy, meditation or psychedelics.
@Leucrotta Oof. For what it's worth, I'm glad to have run into you again after lo, these many years, and that you are still doing excellent art?