really bothers me how quickly "I want to do [x]" becomes "I want to be loved for doing [x]" becomes my old baggage about "it's never me, no matter how much I tried [x] there'd be some reason or excuse someone else is the wonderful person and I'll be pushed off to the side, so I may as well stick to my own little weird whatever and not try" which doesn't in fact make me want to do [x] or be loved for it any less.
I have more baggage about drawing porn than most furries, I can tell you that much.