today's recontextualizing things as ADHD, I now realize that even when I think terrible things, I'm not an out of control monster like I've been told, I'm just frustrated which builds up differently than for someone with a "normal" brain.
The bad news is "the worst people in the world doing not just mean but intrinsically impractical bullshit with out money, like all abusers they can slam you at any time, and nothing that should stop them does" is pretty much the definition of frustration.
@Leucrotta All of that feels very, very familiar. *hug*