now noticing my problem with viewing life as narrative for convenience is wanting to reject it as "life doesn't work that way" is because I've been told that YES life is a narrative and it's someone else's story, I'm either supposed to be the background or comic relief villain. To make storytelling work as metaphor I now have to accept that plot isn't especially coherent and the only protagonist I have to work with is *me*. That's a thing to think about innit?