depressorama
Trying to remember that my experiences incline me towards despair and I have literally fewer serotonin receptors; while bits of me scream about how I’m ugly, stupid, the wrong ethnicity, nobody will actually want me as an so, and a myriad of things which are My Fault.
When I can set it aside mid downswing, it’s amazing how little emotional distance exists between my mood dipping and looping suicidal depression.